The Intrepid Boyager

 Last night as another WOW  night!  I'm still buzzing, especially my prostate.  😁💦 A couple days ago, Mistress sent me a text that read, "Bring me some lunch and I'll shove something up your ass."  Of course, I eagerly complied!  After lunch she told me that she would fulfill her promise on Friday (last night).  And fulfill, and fill, she did!  😊 It started with her directing me to wear my  "small penis" underwear that she purchased me.   She knows they get in my head.  So all day I was being reminded of my undeniably small penis.  It is the most unique feeling.  At once embarrassing, yet totally liberating. Through out the day she teased me here and there with quick strokes, rubbing me through my underwear, and that sort of thing.  She also repeatedly told me that she was absolutely going to shove something up my ass later.  She said with a hint of excitement and enthusiasm that just made me even more giddy....

 In the last post titled,  Spontaneous Combustion , I showed one of my homemade tools that she aptly named the Hell Bitch.  I've made us a number of tools over the years from paddles to gags to spreader bars but it has been a long time since I did so and well...she's gotten my creative juices flowing again.  Know what I mean?  😉😈 I'm a little out of woodworking practice so some mistakes were made but overall, I'm pleased with the results.  This was all done with simple hand tools so you can do it! She gave me a couple practice swats and then christened her the Sweet Bitch.  She picked out the decorative tacks and the pattern and since there are fourteen of them, she declared that is how many whacks I will get when she is ready to use it with sincerity.  But, she is definitely pleased and appreciative.  😍 There's something uniquely deviant about taking the time to make the items you know are going to be used "against" you.   Here ...

 Last night was... Whoosh!  😋😍 It was a Friday and I'd been thinking about her all day.  Both non-sexually but of course, in the most deviant ways as well.  😁  I got out of work a little early and stopped at the store then headed home.  It's been crazy hot for several days but yesterday it was cool and rainy and it felt wonderful.  She had the front door open with just the screen door closed, letting the cool air inside. We had some lunch and it was perfect napping weather so we decided to take advantage of it and laid down.  In no time she was out but my mind was running and I couldn't sleep. Several years ago, on our first foray into D/s, I would make a lot of our implements.  Paddles, gags, even a spreader bar.  For the most part, these were/are tools.  The focus is on effectiveness, not attractiveness.  I'd been thinking of making her a new paddle.  A nice wooden one and one that would have some authority but not be...

PRE-STORY BACKSTORY:   On one of the forums I visit, a thread posted asking bi-curious guys what they fantasize about the most.  In both my real world bi encounters as an adult I was pretty much the top.   But in my fantasies, and the dirty talk I share with my wife, it is very much the opposite and I'm the bottom. I have two main fantasy themes that get detail tweaks but the base idea remains. In both, she is there, fully clothed and not participating in a meaningful physical way. Watching, encouraging, even degrading me for what I'm so eagerly engaging in.  Below is a story about one of those themes. ON WITH THE FANTASY STORY... We've all already communicated online and met briefly in person.  We're all comfortable and feel safe moving forward. He's never been with a man before and he's nervous and feeling awkward.  I'm also anxious but my past experiences say it's best to just get things started.  I get him a beverage and beckon him to sit on t...

 And it happened.  😀 I was supposed to have to wait another day at least but some life circumstances caused her to accelerate her schedule and she decided I was going to cum yesterday.  Naturally, I was quite excited by this surprise change.  That put me only ten days into denial but with her daily teasing and edging it always seems soooooo much longer! She was in the shower and called for me to come into the bathroom.  When I entered, from behind the curtain she said, come wash me.  I pulled the curtain back just enough to expose her wet flesh but not let the water spray everywhere.  She was standing with her back and ass to me, her wet hair stuck to her skin.  She handed me the bar of soap and ever so slightly pouted her ass back.  I understand the nonverbal cue.   I worked up a heavy lather on my hands and then slid one between her cheeks.  I felt her tight nether hole as I passed it and continued forward until the edge of ...

  Cock and Ball Torture or CBT is a fairly common kink in the BDSM world and one I certainly enjoy.  Well, certain aspects of it anyway.  I think CBT covers a wide range of activities, that, while all focused on the male genitals, can be very different things with very different levels of severity.  From binds to insertions to full on groin kicks, CBT occupies a decidedly varied corner in the kink world. It's a kink that can be very pleasing both mentally and physically.  Not only are a man's genitals quite sensitive, we are also quite sensitive to things happening to them!  So to have them attacked in any way, even mildly, can be very powerful. I've long enjoyed C&B bondage.  Various rings, straps, even wide shoelaces have brought me a lot of satisfaction over the years.  I love to have my balls stretched and then bound.   I adore pulling my testicles, one at a time through an almost too small steel ring and then stuffing my ra...

  She says she feels better now.  Just needed to get it out of her system.  😊

 No doubt this is an impactful topic for a lot of men and I am absolutely included in that group. While not tiny, I do have a below average sized penis that is especially small when flaccid.  This has always been an issue for me and I mean since a very young age.  Growing up, my best friend and I engaged in a lot of sexual activity.  More specifically, that is to say we'd masturbate together a lot but also that I would pleasure him by hand or mouth quite often.  He was three years older than me so he was already maturing ahead of me but to compound the situation, he was well endowed and, as I said, I was decidedly not. We quit playing with each other as we entered our teens but he commonly teased me about my small dick and he would sometimes bring it up around girls.  I also had terrible cystic acne so as a teenage boy, these were deeply impactful conditions.  I felt so terribly awkward and unattractive around girls.  That was especially difficult...

 Today was...wow... Although Mistress isn't a personal fan of pink, she knows I like it (always have, long before any of this) but more importantly, she knows it's a powerful emasculating color and so, of course, she strives to make the most of it. The day started with me shaving my legs as usual.  I use a Phillips 6000 electric razor on my legs and ass from about an inch below my knee up.  The lower leg is left hairy due to summer and shorts wearing.  Then I did my usual Sunday shower.  That entails me using a stiff-bristled shower brush over my entire body.  It is borderline painful (especially in sensitive areas) but leaves my skin feeling so good.  Then I replace the blade in my Bulldog razor and shave my entire groin area. Today when I exited I was instructed to put on the new pair of frilly pink panties Mistress just bought for me.  These are the most over-the-top girly panties she's ever gotten for me   Considering she did not rea...

 Yesterday, Domme T was exceedingly horny and after a nice lunch she ordered me into the bedroom and to strip naked.  Of course I did as told.  I was eleven days into denial. Mistress had me lay on my side and then she snugged up tight behind me, spooning me and pressing herself into my back.  She had two vibrators going; a larger one she likes on her clit and a small curved one she likes to insert.  They were humming away and she was crushing her pelvis into my ass.  She was stroking my raging and drippy cock and I was focused on my breathing to keep from cumming. Of course she was teasing me the entire time about how long it had been since I came, how hard and wet I was, how pathetically desperate I was, and so on.  That just made me all the hotter. She was super hot herself and it didn't take long before her soft moans turned to heavy grunts and snatches of quick breaths.  As her orgasm subsided and she enjoyed the continued tease of her vibrat...

 Recently, Mistress instructed me to compile a list of my favorite things to engage in and put them in order of preference.  A few things didn't need to be on the list as they have become standards such as orgasm control, panty wearing, and toenail painting. This was actually hard as I could make a pretty big list but more so, trying to put them in order was really taxing.  After the first three, the margins of separation are very slim and can be totally dependent on mood and application at the time.  At the time of instruction, I wasn't given any reason for the list, just that I was to create it. Here's what I handed in... Participate in you achieving orgasm. Watching you achieve orgasm. Strap on and other dildo play (receiving). Showering and drying me. Paddle, spanking, etc. Psychological play (mindfucks, games, etc.) CBT play Skin play (scratching, Wartenberg wheel, etc.) Humiliation play Bondage I still don't know specifics but I suspect the list serves a couple...

So when I started getting serious about male chastity and really researching it so I could be educated to help introduce my wife to it, one thing I came across (no pun intended) fairly routinely was that if men don't get some kind of release at some sort of interval, it is bad for the prostate.  The assertion generally goes that the prostate builds up fluids and that is somehow bad for it and therefore, while the Dominant doesn't have to provide a pleasurable orgasm, they should do something to cause a "release". The most common approaches I seem to find were full, regular orgasms, ruined orgasms, and prostate milking.  The first one doesn't need any explanation but for those who may not be familiar, a ruined orgasm is just what you're probably thinking - you bring the man right to the brink, past the point of no return and then stop your contact.  The result is, since they are too far gone, they ejaculate but don't get the intense pleasure because you did...