Let's Talk Penis Humiliation...

 No doubt this is an impactful topic for a lot of men and I am absolutely included in that group.

While not tiny, I do have a below average sized penis that is especially small when flaccid.  This has always been an issue for me and I mean since a very young age.  Growing up, my best friend and I engaged in a lot of sexual activity.  More specifically, that is to say we'd masturbate together a lot but also that I would pleasure him by hand or mouth quite often.  He was three years older than me so he was already maturing ahead of me but to compound the situation, he was well endowed and, as I said, I was decidedly not.

We quit playing with each other as we entered our teens but he commonly teased me about my small dick and he would sometimes bring it up around girls.  I also had terrible cystic acne so as a teenage boy, these were deeply impactful conditions.  I felt so terribly awkward and unattractive around girls.  That was especially difficult as I was chronically and almost obsessively horny!

I've always been a very sexual person.  I was masturbating before I could ejaculate.  I married my wife young and she never said anything about the size of my penis being inadequate.  Now, getting overly excited and cumming too quickly could be an issue but she said it was flattering and if I felt like it was going to be an issue, we'd just slow down.  She's pretty much always used a vibrator to achieve orgasm but that was unique to our sex.  So I was at last free to express my sexual desires without feeling too much embarrassment or insecurity.  But it was never too far under the surface.

There was a time, many years ago, when I was into posting nude photos.  I was younger and in good shape then and overall, I didn't look too bad.  Yeah, I knew my dick was kinda small but I didn't think it was that small.  Besides, I'd take the pics in the most flattering way.

Then I started getting invites to join and post my pics in groups with names like "Tiny Dick Club" and "Nothing But Small Dicks".  I could've almost deluded myself into believing that I didn't have a small dick, but the world wouldn't have it.

I suspect a lot of men can relate to my thoughts when I say that the size of (or lack there of) has occupied a lot of my thoughts over the years.  I'm always aware of it and always self conscious about it.  I can't tell you how many times I've imagined what it would be like, what I would be like, with a large cock.  I imagine myself full of sexual confidence, or just general confidence, and I mean true confidence not the veneer that I so often put on. 

I've admired and even lusted after so many gorgeous, thick cocks on the internet.  But I always end up feeling small and inadequate after looking at them.  A double-edged sword I guess...

It's bad enough to have a small dick, but then to frequently have low stamina to go along with it creates powerful insecurities that go straight to your very manhood.  It's far from an exaggeration to say that it was a significant contributor to my personality development.  I became very outwardly alpha.  Some of that is of course natural, but no small part of it is a shield over my penis insecurity.

I've talked to my wife about this a good bit over the years and she has always been consistent in saying that the size of dick is not an issue for her.  But despite this, like so many other men, I had fantasies of a well hung man having sex with her and her, unable to contain her pleasure, screams out and fucks him hard and she cums over and over both due to his size and his stamina.  I was convinced she was just being nice and sparing my feelings.

I honestly don't believe that to be true any more.  I'm convinced she is content with my size and performance.  But...  That doesn't change the enormity of the power that teasing me about my size and/or stamina has over me.  It both humiliates me and excites me.  I don't know why the latter is true, but there is no arguing that I can become incredibly aroused by penis humiliation.

My wife finally did say to me, quite matter of fact, that I do indeed have a "small dick".  She followed it up with the usual "...but it doesn't matter" and so on, but she said it and then removed all doubt or question about my endowment.

I have a small dick.  Even typing that causes a stir in my groin. 

 Also like many other men, the fantasy of being forced to be naked in front of women other than my wife is also deeply embarrassing yet intensely exciting.  The idea of them giggling and pointing at my little dick strikes so deep in my psyche that's impossible for me to understand it.  But I know it is real.  Clothed Female, Naked Male or CFNM, is a powerful fantasy for me.  I envision my wife inviting females over and I have to parade around them in panties or maybe just a cock with a bow tied to it.  I cook for them and serve them and they tease me and pat my bottom and maybe sometimes touch my little penis to discuss it but beyond that, nothing sexual happens.  I'm naked in every sense; physically, mentally, and most importantly, emotionally.

My penis insecurity no doubt also fuels my fondness for being treated like a little boy.  I mean, there's a lot that goes into this one, but penis size is definitely a contributor.  This one is super powerful for me.  I love it.  I love for Mistress to wash me in the shower (her outside of it) and then towel me off when I step out.  Mmmmph!  And to talk to me like a little boy...  This play reaches extremely deep into who I am and where I've come from.  It touches me on so many different levels.  In the presence of a strong woman, this trait in me readily emerges.  It's always just under the surface.

I'm sure all of this also is why feminization totally messes with me.  This is also deeply emotional but this one is different.  I both like and dislike this one.  It doesn't come to me naturally like the little boy role does.  When I was young and thin it was easier as I didn't feel so ridiculous but still, this kind of play really pushes my boundaries.  It can be so embarrassing and can really hit hard at my persona.  It's the antithesis of what everyone sees me as. 

But I recon those are topics for other posts...

Oh and as for my wife?  She's embracing it, slowly.  She realizes the effect it has on me but also, I think, doesn't want to genuinely hurt my feelings.

But handing me these said a lot...

What about you?  Do you like penis humiliation?  Are you someone you gives it to others?